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Three poems by Cathlin Noonan


Self-Portrait From a Balm


I was born from a long, hot labor

a boiling, a hard shake, whipped


to form after the heat and pain

my caul, not shaped in splintering


from my mother, but from a cooling,

scraped away. I reaped


from childless mothers, my face,

my hips, those worker bees


abstinent and dancing along

another’s fertile path, softness


in the sting. I soothed my own

postpartum with a marbling


of fat, peppermint and pine.

Until human hands force


my emergence twisting me

to come forth, I’ll burrow


into the cardboard channel

the one cell, the first pock


of a larger comb.

Know this


unlike this honey, unlike

each tethered larvae


pulsing for a future organ,

although I was programmed


to serve, I’ve swerved

from that impulse, pulling


hard on my digging

to trample other ground.





Outside The Bedroom When I Learned of Your Death


sun paused overhead, the lumber

halted beyond the cloth

drawn windows. Inside the bedroom—

walls softened, fan-cooled like winter

under West Texas stars—eyes lingered

in shadow just before the waking

but ears tuned to the ringing

of the hallway phone. Through that in-between,

I flirted with flickers along the wall, danced

naked legs and tilted hollow hips to clutch

the receiver, attached, pull the cord

taut, back to the folds. Listening


I traced an outline, my finger over sheets,

along the outside curve of the body in my bed.

Hips. Waist. Elbow. Shoulder


up neck around crown. Nose. Lips. Sleeping.

And then I heard you had died in another room,

a hotel in Denver. I imagined


your bed below a window too, remembered

the room where I first pulled shade

to protect the prickling of your withdrawals.


Beside that bed I once traced you, learned

I was no altar, found where you prayed

in a compact mirror, a wafer scratched by cards,


razors, fingernails. Before the call, before

the disk outside the window hung

instead of ticked along, I slept


beside a new lover awaiting the Judgement

of Solomon to decide my fate. But who

can have me whole when afterwards


I watched light slice below the window’s veil

as the sun resumed its path, pushing its blade

across clavicle to settle an edge upon the throat.




How to Get Ahead, She Says


whose presence I felt in a scent

threaded through space near the front

door, felt in the small pot of pink, left open

in morning rush, found in the afternoon